Re: Sociopaths in zone of their own
Shells of human beings that are born without souls.
I have thought that for years.
That was the only explanation that made sense to me, for how can a person have a soul and deliberately hurt someone.
Dad has told me that he had "the frustrations of being a father" when he beat me. That he felt better when he was done, as I sat there hurt and battered. He felt better, I developed an eating disorder. He felt better, I suffered terrible relationships. He felt better,made gobs of money, and I struggled financially all my life for lack of appropriate upbringing and education.
But you know what?? I have a soul. and I would rather be me than be the hollow man I see my dad to be. In spite of my eating disorder, relationship pains, personal struggle and anguish and lack of education, I am a good mom and now a good partner to a "normal" man.
I feel lately like a Phoenix starting to rise, and oh she is terrible and wonderful to behold. I have stared down the mouth of the dragon and daily I heal a little more. The shackles that I was given no key to are falling off one by one due to the magic of growing the Self.
I am so glad that I am not the only one who thinks they have no soul. I will think on this tonite and heal some more....