Published: 16 years ago
Re: need advice badly
Are u happy when u are with him?.... It is not all about loving him (if it is a case).. it is about ARE U HAPPY NOW?
Today I have split up with my BF with whom I was in relationship (rels) for more then 3 years.. (though we had on/ off rels).. Yes I love him but he.. allows me to love him.. For all this time we didnt live together at Christmas night we decided to try one more time. We moved together this January (I am 31 and he is 27). I did EVERYTHING for him: cooking, ironing his stuff, tyding up our room on a day to day basis (he is quite messy), shopping. I did massage to him couple of times, stripteese, was trying to surprise him. Also when food was ready I always brought it upstairs for him and in most cases washed dishes.. Whatever... I made a mistake by 'giving him' too much and of course he got used to it and was expecting it on a day to day basis.. I am quite a stong woman but still I WANT to feel like A WOMAN.. I told him: can u help me with heavy shopping ones a week.. he replied - no coz I dont need any commitments.. I got pissed off and said that I am not going to iron his stuff and get less home work by doing that.. He said: Well, now u are USELESS and throwed his shorts in my face.... I stoped doing everything for him.. and he said we r gonna share the rent (before that I paid just cancel tax and paid for food, he paid for rent plus tax)...... Anyway, too long story to share.......... and not all was shared here.... I love him BUT I am NOT happy with him!................ No flowers, not attention, when we were in the cinema - in 99% I paid for myself.. in sex - in most cases - selfish.... TIRED.... Bl. tired......... God, I feel sorry for myself.. He was telling me that he loved me.. Yeahh................................ I am not looking for an advice here.. I have already made my mind up.. Just felt like to share with someone my story... (poss hoping to feel better)...:)
.. Love is like a plant.. it u feed it and water it - it will blossom.. if u are careless to it - it will die sooner or later... I am in love but I AM UNHAPPY with him.. SO better go..
Thanks for listening..:)