Sugar, right now, take some deep cleansing breaths and calm down. You're stressing yourself out and there's no need to. Every time you start to think fearful and anxious thoughts, identify them, counter them with truthful thoughts, and take a few minutes to get back to a peaceful place. The enemy desires for us to be frightened. There is NO reason to be fearful. Become informed. Become self-aware of who you truly are in this world. God is in control. No matter what happens, it's going to be OK.
You could be right about the rapture, but honestly, I'm a "post-Tribber," or a "mid-Tribber" at best. I think the whole "left behind" story is bogus, placing believers in a position of false peace when there is no peace. Start praying about what you'd do if the rapture teaching was false.
And sweeheart, this is just me, but if you find the info you read on the Conspiracy or political forums too stressful for you, don't read them right now. You don't need the added stress on your system. I say this in love.