hi
u never have to say that i want to die.it is stated that GOD takes test of His people by two ways, by making two groups of people.to one group He awards and provides his blessings like health, money happiness etc.and test him by providing He want to see how they behaves then. and to the other group he deprives (them from his blessing).someone lack health other lacks money etc.He tests them and wants to see how they behaves while living in poor conditions.and the one who want to die is one who fails in his test.and the other who sucides is the one who deny to go under anytest .God never want this from us that we deny or fail in his test.so u have to prove urself u have to pass the test.
bluelillies