Thank you for your interesting experience. Is there anything left over for you? I have some Scietology Tapes and books. I never joined staff. I feel I want to study at my own pace. The PTS/SP course contains ideas and practices for independent thinking.
Your message to others about the Scientology Orgnaization having confusing goals, and among them charging money for courses and auditing, is good for others considering Scientology to consider. I personally have experienced banefits from studying the PTS/SP Concepts, the Tone Scale, and the Auditing Grade Charts, 0 to 4. I have never felt that it was important to distinguish myself as Clear of Pre-Clear.