Re: need help dont know what to do

I talked to the victim advocate yesterday… I ended up telling him everything . to my surprise he understood what I was going through. I have appointments today to talk to other people about this. They want me to talk to NCIS to have an investigation started… but what hurts the most is when I had to tell my command, they all blamed me.. they told me it was my fault for drinking and it was only after the fact that I told them that I have only had sex with two women that they asked if I felt like a victim. These people have the best intentions in mind regardless of what they say.. they are just not use to the idea of a man being raped… I am getting my blood tested for drugs today… but they told me that because of the length of time they may not find anything ( got to love military medical)

Last night I spent the night at my Gunneys house, the wanted to make sure that I was taken care of.. he is a dam good guy.. funny part is that he use to me one of my drill instructors….. life just seems so surreal now. I still cant seem to wrap my head around all this. but one thing I do know is that I don’t want her to get away with it… I will keep you all posted through everything including the trial when it happens, which as it looks now will be soon…. She took a piece of me, even though I cannot get it back I can hold her accountable for her actions….. I hate her so much…. Why would someone do this to me, im a good person, I always try to help people….I HATE HER….. she made me want to die….. sorry I am going off on a tangent, I just caught myself…thank you all for you thoughts and your messages… they help so much..