[[[ Ha Ha! I bet you are serious about that statement! I'm sure, since you are a man, that you have ran into a few of those women in your life. ;) ]]]
lol, I can afford to laugh now Rainy but at the time it tore me apart. I am not innocent by any stretch of the imagination, but this woman (my first wife:) brought this upon herself, really:)
She thought it was okay to sleep around whilst I (little ole me:) strung along as the breadwinner because she thought her beauty over-rid all.
Oh was she in for a shock, for love had made me blind.
The "hell" came when I deposited her on the town that we lived, for that was her place of happiness:)
When I visited my two children she with this beauty of hers thought there is no way that I was serious.
When the truth hit her on one particular visit "hell" raised it's ugly head. She tried to claw my body to shreds, then threw herself down a couple of steps (truly)
(a Greek tragedy:) called the police (her boyfriend:)
to arrest me, lol.
The 'filth' (policeman) was told by me that if he took this any further I would implicate him in a "marriage breakdown", the fool:)
He left her, and I left the country to start a new life in New Zealand with the woman (my wife) who is still with me forty years later.
My kids visited me some years later returned home and started their own life.
I have not seen them since because they did not want to let their mother down (:>( OMG!!!
Who would want to be a man, well I do for one because BS cannot over-ride the truth:)
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You ask if I died right now, where do I believe that I will go and why?
That's a good question Rainy, I hope it hasn't an ulterior motive in it:)
A long time back I walked along this tree-lined pavement (sidewalk). From a tree fell a tiny Sparrow.
I looked down at it, it was in it's last throes of life, the poor little creature.
I stood there looking at it and I thought, that just can't be it, within it was it's spirit.
At that very moment of it's death I felt it's tiny spirit leave it's lifeless little body on the ground.
I felt a strange feeling within me but it wasn't bad.
I didn't want his body left there, took it to the park and buried it.
I somehow knew this little fellow had joined those that had passed before him.
I felt that he was not alone, that he (his spirit) had become part of the spiritual world because a spirit could not die.
I suppose I could conclude from that that heaven is a spiritual place and that is where this dimension could be that I spoke about last time.
Of course I do not know for sure but in my heart I feel it has to be something of that nature.
If it is so then I would be a very happy bunny :#)
I just cannot envisage "pearly gates" :), really I cant. It's not natural is it? It's sounds like going to the "Old Bailey" courthouse to recieve your comeuppance, man's vision, not God's Rainy.